Well, hello all my followers....I think that is Neya.
I have been unemployed for 17 months.
I have been very depressed, apathetic, unsure, motivated, expectant and any other emotion you can think of in the past year and a half. Up and Down.
This is one of the most interesting journeys I have experienced. I am learning a lot about myself. I do have a very deep connection to my God, Usen. That has been a remarkable benefit of being unemployed. I do believe that all my lessons are blessings and hope that I am learning what I am supposed to from this one. I know that I am able to communicate what I have to offer to an employer and have been able to verbalize it appropriately. That has been a big awakening for me.
For years, I said how I felt, which is not what is acceptable in the workplace. I did not know that. The women in my life have taught me all the appropriate behavior that I did not learn as a child. I am sure that my family tried to teach me the socially acceptable ways of the world but I was badly damaged when I got to them and I am just now finding the mature way to navigate in our society.
I have been able to interact with normal people and found myself helping with the Obama campaign. I called voters in Ohio for a few hours and it felt good to actually participate as a citizen. I really didn't have a negative response to people who voted for "the other guy" because it was a clear indicator that we live in a free country.
Life is much more interesting and I have hope that my next job will be a good one. Hopefully, being of service to something or someone that brings me joy.
Mitikuye' O'yasin.
Walk In Beauty.