Wow, time flies when you're having fun, doesn't it?  I can not believe the turn around in my life in the past 3 years.  That's right, it will be 3 years on June 7th that I have been unemployed.  I am seriously looking for work again since I have no money for the summer but I am hoping the market has opened up enough that I can find something to sustain me and Horace until the Fall semester begins. I have enrolled in college and am finding that it is difficult and sometimes overwhelming but I love the interactions with my peers and professors.  Of course, there are moments when I think, "What the hell am I doing here"?  I guess I am finally grown up enough to work toward something and hope I am able to keep pushing through until I get there. What am I pursuing?  I am working toward a degree in Psychology so I can work with Marines with PTSD.  Letty, the counselor, also gave me a couple of options regarding the degree I should pursue. It looks like I can get an Associates of Liberal Arts with an emphasis in Science. I think that sounds impressive. After that I will hopefully go to CalState San Marcos to get my Bachelors, etc.  One step at a time.  
The counselor at MiraCosta told me to eliminate the negative thinking and just do it.  Hmmmm...that sounds familiar.  Peg would have given me that advice.  Although, she would have said, "Just do it a day at a time."  So, my fear of math has put me behind schedule but hopefully I will be able to get caught up next semester. At least, I tested into college English although I took English49 this semester and am really glad I did.  The professor is amazing and the class refreshed my memory enough to improve on my academic writing.  I can't say my creative writing has improved, though. 
One amazing event took place last year when Neya graduated from MiraCosta.  I am so proud of her.  Neya is the busiest person I know.  She began SDSU last fall and is working her ass off going to school and running her own business.  Catalyst Massage is going well and there are now three massueses to choose from.  I have always been astounded at Neya's capacity to work but am so happy she found the self-confidence to open her own business.  Keep your eyes out for her monthly specials.  Getting a massage from Neya is a real gift. 
Another busy person is Kiya, my youngest child.  Kiya opened an online shop on Etsy and is always coming up with different crafting ideas.  I think many of her "pieces" are fabulous. Of course, she is also working at Bed, Bath, and Beyond and running around with her friends.   Kiya marches to her own drum and I like that.  My drum has always sounded a bit offbeat.  I know my offspring are the masterpieces of my life.   I love my children.
Another big event in the last 3 years was losing Peg Wehler.  She was my mentor, friend, and confidante.  I really miss her.  May 1st was her birthday and I have been thinking about her a lot this month.  She died September 3, 2013.  I am grateful that I was able to be there for her in the last couple of weeks of her life.  I always was available to her but going to school really impacted how often I could see her.  Peg gave me hope throughout our association.  She raised 8 kids and whether they believed she did it well, she gave them everything she had to give.  Peg was not an affectionate person but she loved deeply and I knew that she loved me.  I loved her sense of humor because it was based in the reality of life.  I don't think she ever took herself too seriously and that reminded me to relax and go with the flow.  
Too much has gone on in the last 3 years to write it all down, but suffice it to say, I am happy and filled with hope.  I am also grateful I am able to feel "hope" and all the other emotions that come along with life.  Peg is the person that helped me change my thinking, which changed my feelings, which changed my behavior.  
I need to get my ass in gear and study for finals so hopefully, I will be able to write a tidbit here and a tidbit there until I catch up with this blog.  If not, it is not a big deal. 
I hope my friends are enjoying their day.  I send prayers and love to all of you.
Mitik'u ye O'yasin.